There is something behind the name Love Deelour . . .
I can't even begin to tell you how many times I've sat down to write this first post. Every time I did, I would get stuck in my tracks, not have anything to say and completely give up. I think it was a combination of my idea of needing everything to be perfect and a fear of putting myself out there. So why now? Because now, at 33 years old, I am on a self discovery journey. A journey of love, healing + growth for my mind, body + soul and I want to document that journey.
As far back as I can remember I've struggled with low self-confidence, low self-worth & being afraid to live out my life on my terms because I was afraid of what others may say or how I would be perceived. I am the eldest of 3 children + the eldest girl of 11 grandchildren, so I've always been in the position of feeling like I had to put others before myself, have everything figured out + together, and I couldn't let people see me fail. I've always been known as the quiet, shy and soft spoken one growing up and well into my adulthood. Not to say those traits weren't apart of what made me who I am today, those traits just aren't all of who I am today. I've grown into and I am so much more than that. I have so much knowledge, love + experience I want to share with the world in hopes that hopefully it will encourage + inspire someone else's life.
This blog is in a way a manifesto into my life in all aspects. Love Deelour is something I came up with years ago, Deelour being, in a strange way (don't ask me how), a combination of my first and middle name, Devin Taylor. So in essence, Love Deelour means self-love. Which is 100% fitting for the journey I am embarking on. You must love yourself enough to not give a shit and live your life as authentic as possible, because you only have one life to live and you have the opportunity to live it exactly how you want.
So I hope you take this trip with me on my journey and hey, maybe take something from it while you're along for the ride. This will be my small piece of therapy, so I hope it is for you too.