You ever notice how death can bring so much perspective to life? I think it's because it jolts you back into reality to let you know that life really is short and you shouldn't take moments or the people in your life for granted. I get hit with that reality more often than not but it really hit me today when I had to attend my cousin Shirlana's funeral. Being around my family, some of whom I haven't seen in years brought the feeling of love & comfort I more often than not forget about. A feeling of knowing that I'm not completely alone in the world. Of course, my family isn't perfect and we most definitely go through things that I have no control over. I can only take responsibility for my actions and my part in each relationship.
My cousin Shirlana was a generation before me, and hearing stories about her when she was younger got me thinking about all the times I would spend with my cousins. All those times we would hang out at family functions, birthday parties, and sleepovers. All the feelings of nostalgia that I wish I could go back to.
My family is tight knit, always has been. But as time goes on and years past, people tend to grow up and grow apart. That's just the reality of life.
But the thing I remember most about my cousin, apart from her infectious smile and how she would call me slim every time she would see me, was how much she loved & appreciated the importance of family. If I can take away anything from her, it would be that. I love my family & how that no matter what comes against us, we are strong and will look after each other.
I will not take for granted the time spent with my family and the memories that are created. When I grow up and look back on my life I only want to feel peace, love & nostalgia. At the end of the day that is all that really matters anyways. The memories. It's the memories you look back on that will evoke the feelings in your life. I don't know about you but I want to feel overwhelming joy when reminiscing over my life. And I will.
So thank you Shirlana for reminding me of the importance & love of family. I will always hold the memory of you near and dear to my heart. You definitely encompassed spirit, love & hope!